Thursday, January 8, 2009

人生


今天我和父亲有了这样的一段谈话。

[人到了我这个年纪,所有的乐趣将渐行渐远,随之而来的梦想亦将消逝。剩下的,就只有责任。]

[我不认同。]

[在你这个年龄,什么都有可能。因为你们不许需为柴米油盐而忧虑。等你长大一些,光扛下生活的压力与负担,都会让你喘不过气。]

[柴米油盐,有钱就行了。你是说,人到了某个阶段,“什么事都要和他人谈现实论利益”其实早就是个不灭的定律?“人类本来就仅是如此,没啥特别”是我们走了大半生之后,唯一仅存的相信?]

[小时候,大家都如此容易满足。在屋前大树下追逐,玩玻璃弹珠的日子,我到现在这个年龄都还记忆犹新呢。现在哪有时间想这些?这就是成长的代价。]

[到底我们何时开始,必须把生命最深层的意义埋葬在回忆里头,非得硬着头皮接受扭曲的社会规范勉强生存?]

[那你这就错了。这社会无论扭不扭曲都由不得我们去改变。最重要的是如何适应生活,改善生活,接纳并完成社会赋予你的使命,你才会有满足感。]

[我说呀,你的满足感要经过那么多层的“过滤”才“说得过去”,那会否等你的成就终于有“资格”让别人信服的时候,你已失去机会享受成果了呢?]

[这点你倒说得没错。]

[我觉得,每个阶段的人生都有伴随而来的精彩。若退休后,没了事业,孩子又无法日日陪伴左右,那人生岂不就没意思了吗?我想难怪有那么多智慧却“不好服侍”的老人家。想想他们,没有了任何的所谓“成就感”与“价值感”,所剩的尊严又被逐渐衰老的身躯给渐渐剥落,后半生,就只能不断承受“失落”与“完结”。]

[所以我早就规划好了我退休后的生活,我要一一完成那些未完成的梦想。]

[所以我说,生活的素质不该用你那种方式去诠释。“踏实”可以有另种说法。]

[那我现在随便花钱,想买什么就买什么,就算有生活素质了?]

[我说的生活素质,建立在每一天的每一个当下。人生最大的愉悦,是自我价值的实现。我们作为人类最大的幸运,就是可以感知,思考,尔后做决定。这三样东西,每个人生历练不同的人都会有不同的“游戏规则”要把持,要遵守。而现在的我,只是个可以放心鹄望未来,但却无法实在的为社会贡献些什么的学生。每一个当下,我都要彻底的感知大学生活与自己。每一个当下,都要尽可能作出我能力范围应允的思考。每一个当下,都要做担当得起的,让自己快乐的决定。我说的有错吗?]

Tuesday, January 6, 2009

Big Fish 2003

本想写长长一篇撼动人心的观后感,后来觉得每部电影,每个人都会有不一样的震撼。
自己的感受却又五味参杂地在心中来回滚动。
我一时写不出那几乎让人落泪的温暖撼动。
[For one night,one night in your entire life, the universe did not revolve around Edward Bloom.]

[The truth is, I didn't see anything of myself in my father. And I don't think he saw anything of himself in me. We were like strangers who knew each other very well.]


[Having a kid changes everything. There's the diapers and the burpingand the midnight feeding. Then you spend years tryingto corrupt and mislead this child, fill its head with nonsense, and still it turns out perfectly fine.]

["Kept in a small bowl,the goldfish will remain small. With more space, the fish will grow double, triple,or quadruple its size."]

[It occurred to me then that perhaps the reason for my growth, was that I was intended for larger things.]

[Did you ever think that maybe you're not too big, but maybe this town is just too small?]

[You think this town is too small for you? Well, it's too small for a man of my ambition.]

[The more difficult something is,the more rewarding it is in the end.]
[You must've taken a shortcut. Life will do that to you. And truthfully, the long way is easier. But it's longer, much longer.]

[This town is more than any man could ask for. And if I were to end up here, I would consider myself lucky. But the truth is, I'm just not ready to end up anywhere.]

[It's rude to talk about religion. You never know who you're gonna offend.]

[Like one night, I had a dream, where this crow came and said: "Your aunt is gonna die." I was so scared,I woke up my parents, but they said it was just a dream and to get back to bed. But the next morning,my Aunt Stacy was dead. Terrible for her, but think about me,young boy with that kind of power. Wasn't three weeks later when the crow came back to me in a dream, and said, "Your daddy's gonna die." I didn't know what to do. I finally told my father, but he said:"Oh, not to worry."But I could see he was rattled. The next morning, he wasn't himself. Kept looking around, waiting for something to drop on his head. Because the crow didn't say how itwas gonna happen, just those words:"Your daddy's gonna die." Well, he left home early and was gone a long time. When he finally came back,he looked terrible, like he was waiting for the ax to fall all day. He said to my mother: "I've just had the worst day of my life." "You think you've had a bad day?"she said. "This morning, the milkman dropped dead on the porch." Because, see, my mother was banging the milkman.]
[Can I take your picture?- Oh, you don't need a picture. Just look up the word "handsome"in the dictionary.]
[They say when you meet the love of your life, time stops. What they don't tell you is that once time starts again, it moves extra fast to catch up.]

[You were a big fish in a small pond,but this here is the ocean, and you're drowning.]
[You may not have much,but what you got, you got a lot of]
[I've been nothing but myself since the day I was born. And if you can't see that,it's your failing, not mine!]

[Were you having an affair? -Wow. Wow, you just said it. I was expecting to dance around this for another half-hour.]

[And as we get close to the river, we see that everybody is already there. And I mean. everyone. The strange thing is, there's not a sad face to be found. Everyone is just so glad to see you and send you off right. You become what you always were, a very big fish. And that's how it happens.]


[Have you ever heard a joke so many times you've forgotten why it's funny? And then you hear it again and suddenly it's new. You remember why you loved it in the first place.]

[A man tells his stories so many times that he becomes the stories. They live on after him. And in that way,he becomes immortal.]

Sunday, January 4, 2009

2009欢迎你!


早已瘫痪了写日记的习惯,有时写部落格免不了会自问“到底写给谁看”。

从圣诞节至今夜,自觉想法观念及生活方式上有了显著的改变。

心里常有些趣味的自我对话,不晓得是在钻牛角尖,还是在延续着漫长的思考。

那丝恬柔的思绪,又重返心中,准备歌颂我华丽的冒险。

新的一年奢望些什么?

我放肆呼唤绝佳的幸运降临,容我悠然飘荡一场。

新的一年期望些什么?

[一切安好。]

以往愿求一系列复杂却富满可看性的目标及展望,今年21岁想给自己另种痛快。

回想2008年,依计划进行的美事屈指可数。

多属美丽的意外,是在追梦的旅途中邂逅的幸运。

与其大胆假设接踵而来的际遇,不如放心守候如诗如画的生活美好憧憬登门造访。